Well maybe not, but.. I just want to blog it out.. it feels like my chest is going to burst any minute if I don’t.. Things gets so crazy I guess..After the RON issue, I decided to give up on loving someone again, I was tired and such.. everyone knows the story, I don’t have to repeat myself do I? I didn’t date for a long time, I may have had crushes and such.. but everything never last.. it’s just like I’m just having fun and enjoying life.. nothing to be afraid of what might happen next.. no one to think about, focus in just a thing or two of what’s important to me, like God and work and my family.. and ofcoarse my friends and studies as well. That kind of life, is very peaceful.
I was so determined by these things, and never shaken by sweet things a guy do for me.. I don’t even feel anything.. I like them today.. I hate them tomorrow, haha! Things like that.. I was never interested on anyone at all..
Except for this one guy who catch my attention..
The one who stares.. it’s not like he’s the only one who always look at me, I know tons of guys who does that.. but just when he looks at me, there is something in it.. something that makes me really flushed, and shy.. like I don’t know what to do.. Sometimes, whenever our eyes meet, all I can do is look away..I don’t know..I didn’t even realized, I was already entertaining him.. not realizing.. he’s slowly entering my life.
No, I don’t love him. Don’t even be mistaken.
It’s just that, right now, I got use to the fact that, he’s always there..
I’ve always told myself I have to ignore him when I first found out that he likes me and wanting to know me and such, I know what he’s been pointing out and I told myself, that isn’t good at all. I don’t have any intentions to have such relationship.. no, not now, or ever.
Just when I was determined to ignore him, a guy turned around from the fashion room in the hotel, and said.. “heyy” - - and I was like so shocked to even bump him even when our schedule clash big time. That wasn’t the first time, it’s so weird that even though our schedule clashes, I always see him. He’s always there..There were lots of people I can bump into.. there are more than 300 people in that hotel I can see..Yet, it’s always him.
Knowing him makes my heart shaken.. he’s a sweet guy. But still, I was confuse.. and told myself, I can still ignore him.. this is the best thing.. I was eating with some staff, when I got so shocked at the fact, he pops in the cafeteria again, he went to me and blablablah.. then left. I went to the lockers room to fixed myself before going to work, just to get a shock.. that I received a flower from a girl telling me it’s from a guy she works with. I got so shocked, I don’t even remember my facial expression, I was like.. - - - Sigh, I don’t know the right words.. The girl was just laughing.. “Persistent, isn’t he? He doesn’t stop talking about you..”
I still kept in mind that maybe he’s just fooling around.. then again, the girl told me, maybe not,, I can see how much he likes you..
Maybe, yet it’s possible he is just fooling around..
Honestly.. I felt happy. It’s so weird that I got happy with a flower, and had no reaction when other guys give me bouquets and such..
Around 9pm..
We went out, hang out and all.. This is the first time we went out together outside the hotel, it’s a pity that we are always running out of time because it’s already late. After much thought, I guess right now I could I say, I like him and I can’t fight my feelings further..
When he started to hold my hands.. I duno.. I felt weird.. his hands is so warm..
I was talking nonstop then he suddenly hold my hand.. - - I suddenly ran out of words.. it’s like I panic in such way I didn’t know what to do.. He kept asking why I was confuse if I like him or not.. then again.. when we were in a cab.. he asked..
You like me nah?
Do you really have to ask me that, HERE?
In other words, we had this understanding already.. like MU n stuff.. he doesn’t stop asking eh.. and I can’t help myself na din.. I don’t love him, but I can’t deny I like him..
He started to hold my hand.. and such..it felt good before when he hold my hand while we were walking.. but at that time when we were sitting down.. it felt much nicer than before..
He started to kiss my hand - - I laughed, but deep inside got shock, I just told him I like him.. I hope he doesn’t do anything stupid..
I was near my place already.. and he kiss me in my cheeks.. in a very fast way, I didn’t realized how it happened.
He actually wanted to kiss me.. BUT.
I said..
NO, then I smiled.
Just to know, I’m glad I made the right choice of knowing how to say no.. when he texted me the message..
I was amazed by the fact you didn’t allow me to kiss you, not all girls do that.. and it me feel happy because I know you are someone to take seriously.
- - - Really, he’s that hot for those girls always to say YES, KISS ME? LOL!
But seriously, I was glad.
Oh and did I ever mention I was the first girl who rejected that kiss? LOL
Today, I decided to purchase a hosting plan from Irish. Gahh. It’s really a pain when your beloved website was hacked. Anyways, I am currently waiting for her reply, so, my gmail window is opened, just in case she replies. Thanks to Sis Dhadha for informing me about the packages that Irish offers. That kind of, lifted my spirits up in fixing my website. Gahh. Anyways, enough said on that website and hack issues. This is a good timing to blog in this website anyways, I seem to have neglecting it for awhile.
I ask my best friend online, Sheryl to make me a new layout. Something simple, is good. I’m tired of pinkish layouts. I’m so much looking forward to it now. Anyways, moving on.. The typhoon’s name is Frank, and I am hating him! Not only he is screwing my internet connection, he cause lots of floods and even made some power failure in some areas, and fortunately.. not in our place. I was suppose to meet my old friends in their school tomorrow, and because of that typhoon, it was announce that there will be no class, and because of that typhoon, I won’t be allowed to go out. I hate Frank! I was suppose to go shopping, y’know!
I really need to go out and have some fresh air.. I hate being alone in this house.. It’s boring, plus it makes me feel a little bit gloomy.. I want to go out, play to arcades, at least sing some songs in KTV’s or even just walk to malls would lift up my spirit even a little bit of it.
Sigh.. I wanted to post reviews in Ximmy but, I wasn’t really in the mood - - not in the mood to Plurk as well - - I might read Twilight again, for sure, I would feel much better..
My main website got hack - - no problems since I have my backup files with me though..
It’s just that, I don’t know how will I start to fix it - - sob.
Anyways.. can anybody help?
My hair.. - - is soo..(DAY1)
June 21st, 2008 @ 10:51 am | Filed under beauty | ♥ Comment?
I hate my hair right now, argh. I bough Sunsilk repair damage - - maybe it was because of too much hot oils, protein treatments or my relax treatments before - - well, everything of too much isn’t good yknow. Anyways, today is my first day on using the sunsilk repair damage - - the one that’s supposed to have good effects in just 3 days ( remember that commercial? ) haha!
As for my first day, I could say - - It’s impressive, haha! I could see the difference of my hair before and now, haha still not so fab on how I wanted it to be, but it’s better than before..
It’s really funny how I can encourage most of my friends, but can’t encourage myself at all. I was supposed to go to a fast food VTR - - but didn’t go. Why? Uhm, simply because I thought that if I go to a VTR of fastfood, they might say - - YOU’RE FAT and all that shit, haha! I know, that was one damn stupid thought! Another VTR is for the multivitamins and such that my friend invited me to go to, and still, I didn’t go. Why? - - I don’t know, I don’t want to jump and act. I can’t just do it! - - Actually, people think I have lots of confidence in me, but honestly - - Confidence is always a ZERO to me. I just act to be confident at times, but no - - I am not confident at all! That’s reality, haha!
But still, If I am giving them the encouragement they need, then - - that makes me happy. Enough said.
Yay, Since you already know how to make your sushi rice, let’s now move on in making rice balls, or which is called onigiri!
What you will need:
- Nori - seaweed that you can buy in groceries or Aji Ichiban - A store full of candies and asian foods.
- Tuna in a can
- Mayonnaise
- Sushi rice
- salt
- water
1. Since you’ve made the Sushi rice, set it aside for awhile
2. Put 2 tablespoon of Mayonnaise in your tuna. MIX IT WELL
3. Get a bowl, and put 1 teaspoon of salt in it. SET ASIDE
4. Get your rice again, stir stir and stir
5. Wash your hands in the mixing bowl, - - yes, the one which we can call the salty water
6. Get some rice using your hands, and mold it the way you wanted
7. Make a hole using your thumb and put the fillings
8. Then again, mold it again in anyway you wanted
9. When you’re done, cover it with nori
First of everything. The making of Sushi Rice, this is one basic recipe in making sushi (whatever type of sushi that may be) and a basic food of Japanese people.
What you need:
- Japanese rice (If you don’t have this you can use Vialone which is a medium-grain rice, if not this, you cannot use anything else)
- Rice cooker
- Mixing bowl
- Fan or pamaypay
- Rice Vinegar (A mild vinegar good for Asian Cuisines, If you don’t have this,you can use a white wine vinegar or champagne vinegar)
- Sugar
- Salt
- Water
Okay, there’s actually two things to do, let’s start with the rice, shall we?
1. Put one cup of rice into a bowl. (Take note that, 1 cup of rice is just fit for 1 person (If you eat a lot, I guess.. If you don’t, you can use it for two persons)
2. Wash the rice thoroughly.
3. Dump the dirty water.
4. Repeat the process until you can see that the water is already clear
5. Drain the rice into a colandar, strainer or whatever you may think you can use with.
You have the images above as your guide. Credits goes to JustHungryPS. I didn’t take the time to get pictures of me myself doing it, sorry. I’m a little bit messy and have no one to ask a favor to take pictures.
Moving on..
6. Put the rice into a plate or bowl, and let it sit there for 30 minutes (meaning, just set it aside)
7. After 30 minutes, you will notice the rice became whiter - - It did, right? Anyways, dump the rice into the rice cooker.
8. Add water (Basically, if you added 1 cup of rice,you have to add 1 cup of water. In my case, I always make it, 1 cup of rice = 1 cup of water + another half cup or you can simply say it 1 and 1/2 cup of water)
Tada! - - and you simply wait for it to finish cooking - - BUT, it doesn’t end there, you still have to prepare one more thing.
The Vinegar Mixture
6 tablespoons of rice vinegar
5 tablespoons if granulated sugar
3 teaspoons of salt
PS. This is not just fit for one cup of rice, you can actually make this for 5 cups of rice, whatever, 1 tablespoon of this mixture = 1 cup of sushi rice. That’s what I always make, because too much of this mixture will make your rice take vinegar, (duh.. LOL) - - you will have to start over again if this happens, plus you just wasted the rice!
9. Put the mixture into a pan. (Just in a lot heat, until the sugar dissolves) FYI: I actually putted mine in a microwave over, every 20 seconds, I stir it, then another 20 seconds - - I kept doing this until the sugar is dissolved.
- Put the mixture into a small cup
10. Prepare a bigger cup/bowl of cold water, then put the small cup,that has the mixture inside, into the bigger bowl.
(Yes, the bowl should be floating in the water of the bigger bowl - - This is the proper way of cooling it.)
11. Let’s say that you rice is cooked, transfer it to another bowl.
12. Stir the rice - - in preparation so that it won’t be that too hot if you touch the rice later
13. Add the vinegar mixture - - fan it to pull the excess mixture
14. 10 minutes of mixing or so..
I actually didn’t enrolled for anything since, I am on a internship. I going to have my NBI Clearance early in the morning tomorrow, then the next day will be my interview in Hyatt Casino Hotel. I am honestly, very nervous.. I’m been in interviews - - but that’s for school interviews. This is the real thing, having an Internship is like having a job, I know it has no pay, but still, they are the one who decides If they will accept me or not. I’m really nervous. I have to act all confident and stuff, but deep inside, what I want to say - - “Oh fuck, shit.. here it is.. It’s scaring the hell out of me, damn it!”
People have been wanting to know how did I made the Onigiri. I will share the recipe later - - or I would like to call that soon, I guess.. HAHA!
Yay for Ximmy! - - I’m so near to 1000 points, but I’m thinking of keeping my points and not redeem it yet, haha! Hmmm.. who knows.. I need money anyway..
I was surfing the net, and I found this in Monica’s site..
A perfect man is gentle. Never cruel or mean.
He has a beautiful smile & keeps his face so clean.
A perfect man likes children & will raise them by your side.
He will be a good father as well as a good husband to his bride.
A perfect man loves cooking and cleaning.
He’ll do anything in his power to convey his feelings of love.
A perfect man is sweet, writing poetry from your name.
He’s a best friend to your mother, & kisses away your pain.
He has never made you cry or battered you in any way.
Everyone is getting in the phase of being with someone special, my friends, my best friends - - gaaaah.. Am I being left behind? C’mon, I’m just starting to enjoy life - - single life! Friends are still friends, but we have to admit, things won’t be that much the same like before.. but, I guess, if communications and such are still there, I guess it won’t be a problem. Yet, in a way or two, I just feel weird all of the sudden. Anyways, I might be busy sooner, I guess, I won’t be getting to parties, drinking sessions, and just chilling somewhere at night anymore. Well, my absence won’t be that much of a problem since, most of them are busy with their honeys, haha!
Actually, my best friend kept asking me why I don’t want to commit with someone.. - - I just don’t want to. It’s like, I like you - - but that’s just it, haha! There were guys I’ve like - - and the communication, “our thingy” - - was already getting there - - getting serious, but then, I just woke up and told myself - - Nahhhh.. this isn’t what I wanted. Sooo.. I am still single, because of my second thoughts and always doubting feelings, haha! Besides, I guess I’m at the point of waiting for the right guy, I’m not into the curiosity of having a relationship like before, I don’t want to commit just because everyone is being taken, not because I have the privilege to kiss and hug someone, not because someone would treat me this and that..but, I am just waiting for that magical feeling.. with the right person that God wanted for me..
So what If I’m single right now? - - I am very happy as If I’m not single at all! HAHA!
Me and my best friend watch SEX IN THE CITY - - It’s Awesome! Promiiiisseee!
Aisha. a 20 year old femme. addicted to shopping and photography. I study in Enderun Colleges majoring in Hotel Administration. Believer of God. MAC cosmetics is LOVE. Earning enough $$$. more?
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